Yay!!!!!

Dear diary,

It's been a week since the dawn of the new semester of my yet another hectic life. Was really reluctant to go back to uni after 3 weeks of solitary isolation basking under the daylight of pure enjoyment. Thank God for His presence in my life that sustained me this week and strengthened me as I adapt to my busy life again.

Well, this week was really a memorable one with many events happening.

I learnt CPR! Oh man, it was really fun! haha...I learnt it before during secondary school at the Red Crescent Society. But oh boy, this experience was way way different than that. I had the chance to see and practice on doing defibrillation on the mannequin (of course). Defibrillation is what we see on TV where the doctors try to revive the patient( in simple terms). Yea, for those of you who have watched Healing Hands TVB drama series will get what I mean. It was really interesting you know. Thank God that I am slowly enjoying the course now=)

Basically the whole week was really packed with endless programmes.

I really want to thank God for answering my prayers and remaining faithful to me. He blessed me with an early periodontitis patient who is compliant because the previous ones that I have were not. You know, I just can't contain my happiness and joy. I just want to burst out and tell everyone what He has done for me.

On Friday night, I had an enjoyable time at the BBQ with the Form 3 CG gang. Was really fun catching up with them after all this while. And of course, the food was delicious! And a big thank you to our Yours Truly Mr Chef - Gary Phang. haha=p

Then on Sat morning, I went with a group of my coursemates to Bangsar and literally beg for money. Well, it is for a community project called Baktisiswa and also for fund raising for our dental nite ninner aka D&D. It was truly an eye-opener experience and I thank God for blessing us with RM 475. He is indeed Jehovah Jireh our provider! he blessed us more than what we need to achieve which is RM 280.

Just now the Youth Christmas Party was simply tremendous. I really enjoyed the creativity of the drama which blends Narnia and the birth of Christ so nicely together. Had fun fellowshipping with my close friends at Mydin. I really love talking to them. Hope that this moments will not end. Love these people lots. Thank God for them.

And another thing I want to thank God is that I am able to go to the youth camp.haha. Just can't help it but shouting around as it is truly a miraculous and unbelievable answer from God. I have been praying that God will make way for me that I will be able to attend this camp for some time, though I know it is near the impossible. But indeed God is the God of the impossible. When I got my timetable for sem 2, I nearly shout out loud! Because on the 29th my class is till 12 pm. This means that I can go with the rest of them(Janice & Laura) to Seremban.Praise God!

Amen!!!!!

Till then, cheers (",)

Dear Lord

I've just realized that I tend to relate my journal to God. Why so? Am I being a Jesus freak or a hypocrite Christian trying to profess my faith? Well, I have come to realize the real reason is God is so real to me and blended in my life that I cannot help it but to write about Him. My life's ups and downs are often a reflection of the lessons in life that God teach me as He moulds my character.

I admit that I am quite a stubborn person but I thank God for moulding me into the person I am now. Most of the time, I will complain in defeat during harsh times and question God's love for me...Only to find that in the end, all these happen for my own good.

Romans 8:28    And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

I used to misinterpret these scripture and thought that problems will not occur if we love God. So-much-so that when problems occur, I will have the misunderstanding that my level of love for God is not high enough and thus, the cause of my problems. This is totally wrong as I regard that God is an unreachable being.

The song Who Am I by Casting Crowns really touched my heart and it reminds me of how unworthy I am but yet Jesus gladly love me unconditionally. Thank you Lord from the bottom of my heart.

It has been some time since I last spend some quality quiet time before my Master. I really cannot believe how cold this heart of mine has been despite the many 'heavenly nudges' the Holy Spirit has placed in my heart. I know I have grieved the Lord of my life with my indifferent attitude.

How could I?

I have to admit that I am really helpless in my spiritual walk. When I am the closest to God with unquenchable passion for Jesus, it is those times that I fear the most. Yes. It is because I know from past experience of how I can easily plunge and fall into the valley of spiritual dryness. And more often than not, it is those times that I find it hard to cope and climb out of the horrible mess that I have created.

And the fact that I not only hurt God but also the people around me pierce my heart even more.

Yes, I can hurt people when I am far from God because I cannot and I repeat - I CANNOT love people with my own strength. I am an emotional person with a strong C and S personality if you know what I mean(from the DISC profile). Hence, I know that my love from others can only be if I relied and replenish my source of love from my God.

I guess that this post is more of a letter to God rather than you blog readers out there.

Lord, help me in my inadequacies and help me to walk consistently with you. No luke-warmness Lord, but total devotion to you and You Alone. No leftovers for you, God but I want to put you first in my life. And I really mean it without any hypocrisy within me.Amen.

Wonderful weekend

Last Monday till Tuesday, I had a really bad stomachache due to food poisoning. Vomited 3 times and had diarrhea. Spent the whole 48 hours mostly on bed recuperating. Lost all energy and had plain porridge which is really not appetising at all and I wouldn't take it if not for the sake of taking medicine after food. Poor poor me...

Then on Thursday, I went out to The Curve with Keng Fong. Watched Deja Vu and was a little disappointed. Was really anticipating the movie for some time after watching the trailer. hmm... Some parts of the movie doesn't correlate with the other, and sometimes doesn't make sense. For instance, the part when Denzel Washington saw the bloody tissue in the bin in the girl's house, he wasn't even there in the first place. How can at that time it existed without the time machine being used yet? haha...I don't even know how to put in words.

On Sat, I had a really fun time at the Food & Fun Fair. Was really interesting collecting the tickets for the giant slide despite the blazing hot sun. And it was so foolish of me not to apply any sunblock lotion and heed my mom's advice. As a result of my foolishness, I have now a sizzling red hot hands and some part of my face. Couldn't even sleep well last night as my hands felt really hot and I had to put moisturizer to cool it down. But overall the event was really a memorable one. The food sold was heavenly and praise God for the good weather and the good turnout. It is true that unity is strength. God is truly amazing! Well, I have to say that I really enjoyed the laksa and the chicken rice was not bad. When I went back home, I slept like a baby into the arms of my loving bed...hehe=)

Had a nice rest and went to church today. I was blessed by the sermon and my heart was stirred to have faith in God. Indeed, trusting God is a challenge and putting Him first is never easy. But thank God that He has never given up on me! I want to know God and the power of His resurrection. Thank you Lord for everything!Hallelujah=)

Then, went to Jaya Jusco with my sis, Jenny, Janice and Laura. They are an awesome bunch of friends that I really enjoy hanging out with. So blessed for friends like them=) Thank you for celebrating my birthday with me. I am really touched by your thoughtfulness. Love you guys so much!

Till then, more updates soon. Cheerio for now!

Truly Blessed

I felt really blessed and thankful today. Just felt so loved by my family. Its true that God speaks to us thru circumstances and life situations.

"God is more interested in our character than in our comfort." I find this statement undeniably true.

I have always loved children and I find pleasure whenever I play with my cousins. So-much-so that whenever the news about any new-born baby reach my eardrum, I will smile from ear-to-ear. There goes another happy camwhoring session with the cute infant. haha=p It just thrills me and I wish that I could look at life the way a baby would. Easily satisfied. Not procrastinating. But F.R.O.G. Fully rely on God. Someone once told me that if God isn't the Lord of your All then He isn't the Lord of your life at All. In other words, if you only surrender 99% of your life to God, then God isn't the Lord of your life at all. More often than not, I fail to be an obedient daughter to my beloved master and rebel against Him. I thank God for His unconditional love to me because if it weren't for His grace I do not deserve to be here in the 1st place.

This week, I realize and start to count my blessings. Indeed, although I often complain about the storms in my life, God awakened me that there were other more unfortunate children out there who are malnourished and deprived of love - of which I have aplenty and in abundance.

Let me share a true story that have impacted my life.

She had an ebony black hair neatly tied and she had a fair, flawless complexion that many girls would die to have. Beyond the sunken eyebags are untold stories of silent suffering and hardships of life. Her facial features are of typical Chinese with an extra asset of double eyelid. The motherly side of her was accented with her gentle words as she carressed the infant in her arms. I stood there and gently touching the cute baby that was in deep sleep, clearly oblivious to the attention he was having. Ooohhhhh.....He was just sooo cute! I love the way he slept in his mother's arms. Gonna carry him once he wakes up, I thought dreamily.

My thoughts were abruptly interrupted when there was a tug at my jeans. My eyes headed towards that direction.

"Che-che.....see my artwork...nice or not?" 

My attention was drifted to a jovial little boy with curly eyelashes and proudly displaying his artwork. Not bad! I scrutinized the colourful picture in my palms. As I bent down, I couldn't hide my disbelief as I stared at the little toddler face-to-face. He was a total replica of that baby. Or rather, the baby was a miniature creature of the little boy. Gosh! What similarities! Before I could even stand up and regain my composure, I saw not 1...not even 2...but 3 other girls with exact resemblance to the baby and the little boy. The power of genetics per se is clearly shown before my eyes.

"So cute lar your children," I praised the mother. I have always fantasize of myself having many siblings. I would imagine myself anticipating the enjoyable playtime with my siblings after school...haha. And, not forgetting the argument that will arise. That will definitely add spice to my life.

I dreaded the time I had to part company with the mother and her adorable children. I haven't even had the chance to craddle the baby! Never mind. I comforted myself. I would just have to wait for another week before I could see them again. That will be so much fun. One week wor....Be patient lar, Stefanie.

It was not until today that I heard the news that broke my heart. My heart was grieving when I heard the truth. They were a poverty-stricken family with hardly any food to eat. The truth struck my heart real hard. This is reality. The kids are so young and they deserve a proper childhood experience. I cried out to God. I couldn't bear the thought that at such a tender age, the kids have to face the bitterness of life - struggling day by day with inadequate energy to face the day. My heart went all out to the mother - whom I know is in a dilemma. Although we are not blood-related, but the agonizing harshness of life that the children face was more than enough to open my eyes and I started to realize how blessed I was.

I couldn't help asking God as to why the children had to undergo the harshness of life that even an adult could not handle. I guess as young as the children are, no one is spared from the cruelties of life that occured after men fall short of God's glory. Nothing in this life is a safe refuge other than God alone. And I am truly thankful that God took the initiative to reconcile with men. In God alone, the imperfect becomes perfect. In God alone, is the strength that I will ever need to face life's struggles.

I know that God loves this family very much and He has not abandoned them.

He is the father to the fatherless. His unfailing love will carry them thru the storms of life. And I am well assured that these children will be well taken care of. I will keep on praying for them. That is the least I can do.

And next week, I will take the children out for a meal at KFC.

Yeap, and the opportunity to cradle the baby in my arms =)

Thank you God for the lesson.

A change....perhaps?

               Holidays have just begun and perhaps that explains the existence of this blog. Been reading some of my friends' blog and I find them truly inspiring. I must say that some of them are really good writers and I am impressed and fascinated by their writing. Hopefully my blog will be of encouragement to others who read this.

Just some random thoughts/happenings of the week:

1. VBS(Vacation Bible School) - being a helper in this 3-day programme have indeed unleashed the youthful  vibrant side of me. haha=p I had a really great time with the kids-running from one station to another & catching my breath was no easy task. teehee. The songs were really cool. I mean it. It takes lots of stamina & memory to follow the actions. No kiddding! On the 2nd day, I had a really bad flu owing to the unbearable temperature there. Even used up 3 packets of tissue that day. Oh well, the theme was Arctic Edge-Where adventure meets courage and it is supposed to be cold you see. hehe. Starting to miss the kids already. hah

2.  Totally obsessed with TVB drama series - Been watching 2 shows in a row on my laptop. The beauty about vcd is I can watch anytime and anywhere. That includes rewinding and watching my fav scene over n over again. And also...forwarding and watching a few episodes in advance...thanks to my itchy hands. haha

3.  Had a great time with See Wan today - We watched Happy Feet. The penguins were kinda cute when they were small only. Sigh. Wish  I could adopt them, if only they can adapt themselves to the hot weather in Msia. haha.

               Hey guys, do leave a line or two here yea. Would love to hear comments from u all. will update soon. Cheers(",)